So often we, as Christians, end up focusing so much on what we can do for God, so much on praising and serving Him, that we forget why we do it in the first place. We are so busy praising God for being loving and faithful, that we forget to let Him be loving and faithful to us. It’s like if I had a problem with my laptop and went up to my dad and told him “You are so good with laptops! It’s just amazing how good you are on computers. I am so glad that I have a dad who can do this kind of stuff and is willing to do this stuff!” but didn’t actually let him work on my laptop. God is loving and faithful. He most definitely deserves our praise, as much as we can give. Just think about it, how much is praising God for being loving worth, when we are so busy telling Him that He is amazing and forget to let Him actually hold us and help with our problems? Recently in my journey of faith, I have found myself thinking that God is ashamed of me and no longer wants to be associated with me every time I mess up. That maybe He won’t love me anymore because I stumbled into temptation again (False!). I can believe and say to anyone else that God most definitely loves them, no matter how far they’ve stumbled, but when it comes to myself I don’t believe it. Everything in my life I want to do for God, and I love Him so much, but it has been a constant struggle to actually let Him love me. When I’m hurting I don’t just go to Him and say “hold me. Help me.” I curse myself for not being stronger. Or for getting into that situation in the first place. And that is not right. Every person makes mistakes. And every person is loved anyway. God loves you. He wants to help you through whatever you are going through- all you have to do is stop praising and trying to get through it by yourself and give it to Him. He is such a wonderful Father. He will help you through whatever it is. Just let Him. Try to accept the fact that He loves you. Try to accept that He forgives you when you mess up. Psalm 136:1 says, “Give thanks to the LORD for He is good. His love endures forever.” He is good, yes, so always thank Him and praise Him. His love endures forever. Let that enduring love wash over you. Let it heal you. Let it remind you of your worth to Him. Psalm 121:2 says, “My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.” When you are struggling, when you stumble, let Him help you back up.He wants to help you. Let Him help you. Let Him love you.
You loved me before I was conceived in my mother’s womb. You loved me so much that You sent Jesus to pay the price for all my sins. Because you knew I would stumble. You knew that I would mess up. I have messed up, so many times. I will continue to mess up until I leave this earth. You don’t want me to sit on the ground when I fall and curse myself for falling, you want me to look to You and say, “God, I messed up, but I’m ready to get up and do better now.” I forget sometimes that You don’t expect me to live this life perfectly for you. I forget that You never intended for me to rely on my own power and own strength to get through it. I’m ready to rely on You again God. I’m ready to let you love me.
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